Day#002 Bitter sweet truth: haleema’s journey to life.

Re-reading day 001 , applying , breathing ….

from day 001 : Q1.If I forgive myself, for feeling guilty , or afraid …how does this help me improve my life and others around me ? Q2.What is the intention/ goal in this writing ?Q3.  Will this help me be more focused ? Q4.Will this help me in making more mature decisions , and with more proper intentions ?

Several days later , again sitting here. breathing . Ok , write ….

Q&A1. If i forgive myself , for feeling guilty , or afraid ….how does this help me improve my life and others around me ?

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not actually accept or allow myself to realize the impact of feeling guilty , or afraid… physically/mentally , to myself/others.

I am awake now to the fact that I have buried myself inside under a blanket of fear and guilt , and banned/ put up a wall , in my mind , tying myself to silence and tryed dissasociate myself from reality/ the world / family / …..myself ..healing , truth , peace inside.

I created the lock on my mind , and keept myself from breathing .

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize Guilt, Fear and Depression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to needlessly surrounded myself/others with the self made emotions and state of mind of Guilt , Fear and Depression.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and allow myself to manifest self loathing behavior that I did not accept and allow myself to understand , was infact my own manifestation inwardly/outwardly  to myself/others.

I alone am the reason for my own emotions. I understand that physical circumstances can and often do trigger our emotions to be disrupt from our own ”normal” state of mind.

I alone am the reason that I project my own emotions. Regardless of my own reasons/excuses for projection .

If I tell myself I can’t do something , then I have outwardly projected failure to myself.  If I say I can’t do something , and I can not justify this with an actual physical reason as to why ‘I can’t ‘, then I have told myself a ”little white lie”. I have created a space in my own mind to create a foundation for a cage. More so , I have created the perfect foundation for weakness within myself, to allow myself to accept insult/ and ridicule myself and open the doors to anxiety , grief , fear, shame etc. ..

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not understand that I am hurting myself and others , not only emotionally but also in some ways physically and for not accepting and allowing myself to believe …in me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not to  face my self in the past, and will resolve to finishing what I have stated here , (even if I get off task ).

I will work on this ever day , even if I dont write every day , it is important to re read and to read others posts, and to put forth more MORE  effort in to this .

(for day 003) first we admit … then we forgive … but let us not dare forget , the importance of self -correction . .. and to learn every day .

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Day#001 Bitter sweet truth :haleema’s journey to life.

Starting a fresh . Day one.

Why? Looking back at late posts, realized I was getting no where , with complaining all the time.  Letting the past out was good , prehaps healthy , however , reliving the events was equal to living a repeat night mare over and over again. For this allowing fear back within my self. Intention was not realized and was not in full being put to use.

Examine:(site references)

http://www.selfgrowth.com/articles/Rutledge2.html

http://www.abuddhistlibrary.com/Buddhism/F-%20Miscellaneous/General%20Miscellaneous/Forgiveness/Material%20from%20Guy%20Pettitt/Self%20Forgiveness/SFStep01.html

http://wiki.destonians.com/Self-Forgiveness

Define Self Forgiveness :  An act of taking Self-Responsibility for one’s own deeds, actions, consequences, thoughts, beliefs, ideas and who one is in it’s entirety. Creating a way for oneself, giving self to self as one releases emotional, feeling and thought baggage. A specific decision to stop something that one realizes is harmful, abusive or does not serve oneself or others.

Take that in for a moment , rereading to ones self , and let the words come out ….

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself , to not accept and allow myself to improve my self worth because of allowing myself to give in to the mind set of fear and fear of rejection of self and others, and fear of failure in my idea of a successful life.

I will find a moment in every moment to breath , to relax my mind and neck down to my belly and relax and clear my mind in moments of fear , I forgive myself that I have realized, that I had not realized that I had allowed myself to develop a habit of allowing a fearful mind set come to me when unsure about large decisions in my life that do infact affect others and myself as a result. (rearead aloud to self several times, and every time you see this)

Ok , breath …. breathing , 10..9..8..7..6..5..etc…

(for tomorrow ) If I forgive myself, for feeling guilty , or afraid …how does this help me improve my life and others around me ? What is the intention/ goal in this writing ?  Will this help me be more focused ? Will this help me in making more mature decisions , and with more proper intentions ?

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